I Died Infinitely

Posted by EgoDemise on 19/07/2010
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Level:	6
Type/Strength:	Purple Sticky
Method of Ingestion:	Smoking

WTF! I ingested this substance thinking that I was getting myself into some mild high like weed, but boy oh boy was I sadly mistaken. I made the profound mistake of not doing my homework on this stuff before I tried it, but luckily I was indoors and in the comfort of my own room. Immediately after I ingested my first hit, I began to feel like a wall of energy was rushing past me, yet for some reason it was too dense for me to pierce through. I remember raising my hand to touch this "field" rushing toward me, and I felt the strangest sort of vibration all across my body. I began to see my essence in everything around me while simultaneously witnessing the repulsive deconstruction of my world, my identity and my relation to anything else. While transitioning into the total out of body phase, I began to feel like I was entering the "real world." I became angered that I had woken up to the real world and that the old world was such a horrible farce. I asked myself why I was tricked into experiencing such a false world in the past, and the non-vocal response that seemed to emanate from nowhere and everywhere was, "There is no trick, only observation and action for you to subdivide." Hereafter this moment, the world suddenly lacked any hint of duality. This world was timeless, it was boundary-less, and it was who I WAS. The environment rapidly folded into me, and I into it. This was not a world that I entered, rather a world that was and still is the totality of who I AM as a conscious entity. The feeling of being the entire universe became so intense that I began to expand in all directions perpetually. I began to know that this wasn't any hallucination, rather it was a piece by piece unveiling of how reality actually works on a subatomic level. I gradually experienced the consciousness of anything that came to mind. I became water, light, atoms, bacteria, the trees, the earth, the insects. I even became highly aware and intelligent beings that were able to shift dimensions at will. I knew the Sacred Order of the multiverse in the span of 10 infinite minutes. It was like a very rapid and somewhat disturbing download of everything that ever existed. It was a perpetual folding of space and time to reveal the Singularity and connectedness of all things. It was totally unexpected and unfathomable. I might as well have died and been reborn an infinite amount of times over. When I came back to the "real" world, it seemed much less real than before. I still feel that I had truly experienced myself and reality as it really is, and that as I am typing this I am dreaming. I will be dreaming until I die or do Salvia again. I truly do believe physical death is similar to a Salvia trip, which is why people always compare it to death. Everyone should take this herb very seriously and know that it is showing you a part of yourself that is eternal and dynamic, yet strangely static. I now know that I am the only being in existence, therefore I should treat all beings around me with utmost respect and as if they are myself, because they are...LoL. I wasn't just one part of the eternal continuum, I was EVERY PART the continuum. Call me a crazy space-cake if you wish, but I believe I did indeed ingest the real Red Pill. I can't undo what Salvia taught me about myself, no matter how hard I try to forget. Tread lightly with this substance. Some things may be better off left unknown if you at all fancy who you think you are.

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Posted by monstarmatt on 07/20/2010
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There are many who have had the same experience, i my self am one of them. I dont think anybody here is going to call you a crazy space cake lol. Do you think you will try salvia again? i thought i would never touch the stuff again after my trip but i just had to experience more, thanks to salvia im actauly able to work out alot of my problems in this reality. Thanks for the post was very entertaining and thought provoking, very well writin.

peace

Posted by alfonsdewolf on 07/28/2010
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Yes, VERY well written. It can be quite the challenge, putting a Salvia experience into words.
Lady Salvia showed me so much (and terrified me) the first time - a "total immersion" experience - that I rarely dabble with smaller amounts now, going on 2 years.
And yes, I will never be quite the same :D

Posted by wildthunder on 09/21/2010
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wow, I knew I was not the only one who visits that realm. When I use salvia this is where I go. I tried to explain this feeling to a friend of mine and could not. How do you tell someone that what they think is reality is nothing more then a perception.

Posted by Polyamorous on 09/30/2010
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The strangest thing is i totally agree. Totally understand everything you just said.

Posted by hardcore on 10/03/2010
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You did an excellent job explaining that experience. I tried the purple sticky as well. Although my experience on the purple sticky was a little different than yours, I have tripped very similar to your Salvia trip. The experience I had that was similar to yours was a manic/ dillusional high I had due to my bipolar disorder. At the time I was not on any drugs, it was a natural high that was caused by not sleeping for over five nights in a row. In the part where you said that you knew the sacred order of the universe and you became a highly intelligent being that you could shift dimensions at will; that is what happened to me in my manic high. In my experience, I felt my brain open up and all of a sudden, I teleported from planet to planet to planet. It was exciting and erotic. I have not had that happen on Salvia yet, but I'm hoping to get there again someday. I have had some wild Salvia (alternate world) experiences so I am close.

Posted by jamiej427 on 12/18/2010
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First Thank you. and second...Agreed. Excellent summary...I'm still trying to put my thoughts together on paper. My life as I've always known it has changed forever as of twenty four hours ago. Your story is so similar to mine as if I wrote it. It scares me that I've never felt anything else in my entire 34 years to be so real and overcome everything else I thought to be reality. I struggle to find the right words.I went into my experience almost accidentally -definitely blindly, not a bit of research thinking it'd be a weak bud hit out of the bong. Boy was I wrong and I can't go back. I'm not sure how that makes me feel yet but I do know my happy go lucky girl self has shifted into something else.
I had run out of pot so I thought what is this salvia stuff thinking it was fake weed and I was feeling desperate. I usually dont even drink- I've smoked pot for a long time though. So basically when I bought this 20x from a local smoke shop I had NO IDEA what to expect...therefore I had NO pre conceived images, details, thoughts of what would happen. I thought at most I'd walk away with a headache seeing hand tracers. The thing is -this isn't funny or to be taken lightly. NOt everyone can handle this. I'm doing my best to... I'm blown away at one thing that cannot stop consuming me. As I research this and find nearly EVERY experience and story posted involves the same details. The pages turning over them, coming through the layers, being urged on by the usual two onlookers, the huge feeling of sad disappointment it's all over and THIS is how it is, everyones to take there place as they fit on the page...as they should. Feels like they all know, has it all been a joke on you...I MEAN, I COULD GO ON AND ON...the details are exact among HUNDREDS of stories...first time users to many time users. That's how I know this is bigger than anything I've ever known. The stories are all the same, just seen slightly different for example the two ppl for me were my mom and dad.
WTH But how did I know to experience the same scenes and theres soooo much more but I can't go on and on here. This is my first comment. I feel crazy writing it out publicly but I know the ones who have been there get it and I need to hear what others have to say or discuss this with someone. My boyfriend is getting sick of hearing about it (he's pissed I did it anyways w/o him knowing he basically found me on the floor after I said MOM) and helped me back to 'normal' (lol)
I remember when I said mom. But I couldnt say anything else, I was searching for explanation like "really THIS is what we're supposed to do??"My boyfriend heard me say mom and a crash cuz I fell ( I was pleading with her scared and worried I couldnt get my bones or breath through this page in what I felt was slow motion almost. Getting to that next page, plane...whatever... OK I'll stop now. I just had to let you know your post nearly brought tears to my eyes. Not from sadness...pure shock. I had the same experience. How is this so? On or off drugs? Can someone tell me? Also it's comfort you came from that total unexpected place like I did, I DO NOT WANT to hallucinate thats not me and I WENT THERE. And I felt like I had unlocked some sort of floodgate and it was over now and everyone was almost applauding and there was also this sound of a rollercoaster like woooooaaaa woooaaaaa ....does anyone else know what I'm talking about??? I kept asking my bf if it was done yet was this real etc. I had no concept it was the drug.
Thanks for listening. Anyone ask Q's or w/b or email your experience. I'm interested to talk to others. I'm so confused but also confirmed. I dont know what to say. In a way I feel like I shouldn't even be posting this or talking about it like its meant to be unseen or secret.

Posted by jamiej427 on 12/18/2010
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I also wanted to add I've done X a couple times back in the day and mushrooms a couple times. I hated mushrooms and I was definetely 'seeing' stuff. THIS was not THAT. I promise you that what this unlocks is an experience that will make you feel like a grain of sand among a much bigger something we're all connected on. It was slow and straining and absolutely terrifying. When I get together my experience I will post.

Posted by Ninetails on 07/12/2011
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Good post!

Posted by chriskowalski64 on 08/15/2011
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So...I dont get it am i an extension of your conciousness?

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