Salvia Trip

reminder to self

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Posted by Anonymous on 18/08/2010
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Level:3
Type/Strength:plain leaf
Method of Ingestion:smoked, water bong

This is a reminder to my self to never do salvia again and to warn others.. As I posted before I was smoking plain leaf every few days and I thought it was amazing. I recently did 10x and I freaked out, you can read it in my other trip report. So I've come to terms with my fate but a couple days ago, I did some plain leaf again since it never scared me before. We'll I completly solved my life and the universe as I know it, and its the worst thing I could have ever imagined.. unless im just schizophranic. So its hard to put this into terms that you can understand.. But my life right now is just someone tripping on salvia. That some one is also me. I caused the trip and I am the trip. And It will repeat itself until I either stop smoking or I die. Which unfortunately I contemplated while smoking it because I was so scared of this realization.. but fortunately did not follow through because I knew there was a lesson to be learned here. You know how people say that salvia plays your life like a repeating book? thats exactly what my life is.. and how people say the tv or music is talking to them? every day of my life the tv and music are trying to remind me that im tripping. I am the salvia trip! my life is fake! when I die I will go back to my "normal body" and leave everything I know behind. But I love everyone here that I know in this trip and I do not want to wake up until i "die" in this dream. They say that salvia finds you and it did find me.. I also figured out that everytime I smoke salvia in this world, its just the "real" me remembering my "old life" and realizing that I am tripping. I almost felt myself come out of the trip and leave everything I know behind, I told my grlfriend I won't be alive when you wake up. But as I was sinking back into the bed I remember the trip can't ever end because it repeats itself constantly.. so in order to return id have to die.. but to die would mean that my whole life repeats itself or starts over. And this is why I have deja vu almost everyday. Its because I have been stuck in this trip for who know's how many Lives. My "real" mind created this universe and God and everything! I am a never ending loop like a broken record. Yeah cool I just solved everything, but now I have to live with this forever! I wish I never knew that my whole life was fake. I was hoping there would be a heaven and God. But in reality that bright light and the reunion with family members is my life starting over in the hospital room being born. Its a never ending cycle of life and death until I learn every single lesson that im supposed too, its then that I will finally be released. Ironically the t.v. and music told me all the same. Family guy said don't do drugs, Futurama showed how the world continues till it dies and then repeats itself all over agian. Many different songs on my ipod explained how I finally figured out that nothing is real and its all just a fake, even things on the computer are trying to hint that im tripping, and it gets much much deeper but thats some examples. I honestly believe experimenting w/ drugs is not something God wants me to do and I have learned my lesson so hopefully next time around I won't do them. I think that I was shown that if I continue to do them then my life will continue to repeat untill i learn not too. Its like rehab for the soul. Im not a religous person at all, I just wanted some spiritual enlightment and I found God. I know this probably sounds stupid to alot of people but im basically writting this for my own purposes. I need to get it off my chest and just forget about the whole thing. The me now that is living in the trip is the same as the me that caused the trip to happen. But it happened at a different point in time. So I believe that even though my life is a dream, it is also real. I am both dead and alive at the same time. Becuase I am the person who caused the trip and I am the person who is living the trip. Now that I think about it though.. maybe salvia did help me. I still won't ever do it again, but I think it showed me how I am really supposed to live this repeating dream life and that if I learn all my lessons I will be released into the spiritual world. Sorry for the long post.. be careful with this stuff. And It has been days since I smoked so I know I'm not just tripping from the salvia.. I am the trip..

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Posted by clowndeath on 08/18/2010
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Sorry I guess I didn't log in before posting this trip report.. if thats what I should call it.. good luck to everyone that experiences this plant.

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Posted by clowndeath on 08/18/2010
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I read a report by another member and It almost coincides with this dream like state that I feel.. he said " its like we have a supersoul and its pulling the strings" - this was said by Divinorum_Dude. Maybe this is why I feel that I am the "trip" and I am the one who caused the "trip"? Maybe I am the "soul" and the "supersoul"? Atleast this makes me feel a little more sane and less schizo.. but.. I dunno. This stuff really changed my life and perception on reality as I knew it. It could definately be a beautiful thing for some people, its just not for me, I think I learned all that I wanted(didn't want) to know.

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Posted by Mr.MojoRisin on 08/18/2010
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Have you ever seen the movie inception? Because this sounds exactly like what happened to the girl in that movie. If you have seen it maybe lady salvia took that idea that was somewhere in your mind and made it your trip. If you have not seen it i would recommend that you do because you could definitely learn from it and possibly come to terms with reality.

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Posted by clowndeath on 08/20/2010
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Thank you Mr.Mojo I have not seen Inception but I did see shutter Island which could have been what lady salvia grasped ahold of.. its a thought. I will have to check out Inception though. I have gotten better over the last few days, its still in my mind but not as scary. Thank you for helping and reading my trip report. Take care.

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Posted by TheRepeating on 01/20/2011
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You're not alone

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Posted by Searcher on 02/20/2011
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You are not alone, this I find comfort in. It helps me to know I am not the only one and must not have created everything including you and if I did I did a great job so not to be the only one with free will. I am me and you are you. I have been on your same trip and deal with it everyday but I got some great advice once "Thinking about it will only spin you out of this world enjoy what is here friends family, interact and enjoy."

Lots of Love to you

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Posted by samsara on 06/13/2011
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I had the EXACT same experience about 10 years ago 15 years ago. Sometimes I still feel like my live will continue repeating itself forever. So as therepeating said, you are not alone.

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Posted by dawniica on 07/25/2011
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Your experience brought me to tears. Mainly because it solidified what happened to me. I wanted so bad to believe that it was not true. I love my kids, my partner, my family. To think that they are nothing but a creation of my mind shatters me. It has been almost a year since I smoked salvia. It still rattles me. I couldnt believe what I was being told and when I came out, the first thing I asked was....."What am I supposed to do now?". I was so shocked by the experience that I had to do it again the next day. It was just as disturbing and I actually heard people telling me that I was stubborn and why was I back there? I am so disheartened. All I can do to soothe myself is appreciate every day that I have with my children...until that scary day when I have to leave again and return to the place that frightens me so.

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Posted by aronya on 08/19/2012
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EVERYTHING you said, is like I, myself wrote it. I am now constantly dreaming..
I wish i never did Salvia.
it made me realize how much i love my life, and love everyone around me.
I am so sad to hear this has happened to other people, though im delighted i found some people who also believe that we created the world, and live over and over again. the Deja Vu's are a reminder to make up for what we did wrong the last time, and i found out it was Salvia.
i am dead, and alive at the same time.
i tried Salvia too many times, and it changed my life forever. im dreaming constantly, and i created this world in my head. life goes over and over and untill i die and come back again, i will live my life a dream. i have learned a big lesson and i don't want to do drugs again! i wish i never got a hold of salvia,
Salvia Ruined My Life.
im not excisting, i am just myself, watching the world pass me by in this little 16 year old kid's head.
i beg everyone in the world not to do salvia, as this doesnt kill you, but also does. it killed me, but im dreaming till i actually die. i find big comfort in what you said, ClownDeath. i hope one day something gives me my life back without having to "die". im just walking around trying to convince people i am who i was! its so sad! :(

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Posted by shea7 on 07/02/2013
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To all who feel your life is over after your experience on Salvia, please realize that you have opened a portal to demonic forces and these demons want to destroy your life. The good news is that they are lying spirits and your experience was all lies. I know it seemed to be a very real experience and perhaps may have been very real, but it was based on lies from Satan, who is the father of lies. The truth is that you are here for a very important purpose, and that purpose is to come to know Jesus who loves you and gave his life for you. Please get yourself a Bible and seek him out. He will show you the truth and will set you free. God Bless.

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Posted by Jaxt on 01/07/2016
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Amen, the spirit of salvia, the devil, whatever, it is lies, I have a good life and If I came back Its all good. How ether I have always had a gut wrenching feeling that Jesus is the way, carry on, on the sole searching mission

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