Salvia Trip

SCARIEST EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE

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Posted by Anonymous on 23/02/2010
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Method of Ingestion:Bong

OK...

I don't even know where to begin.

I'm a 23-year old male and I have smoked salvia before. My first time (I don't remember the strength) was me laughing uncontrollably for five minutes (I smoked at night, on the beach, with two other people with me). It was hilarious and I felt no danger whatsoever. I did it a couple of times at later times with nothing as memorable except for once in my backyard with some people (I stepped out of myself repeatedly and began to grow paranoid of the people around me and ran into the house, hiding in my room...it eventually wore off).

I spent most of the day yesterday watching a couple of movies and being bored by myself. My roommate had gone out of town that morning. I had smoked salvia out of a pipe the night before with a friend but didn't really have a very impactful trip.

Last night, however, was another story.

After the last movie, around 9:30pm, I was bored and noticed the salvia container on my kitchen table. I thought, eh...what the heck. In the back of my mind, I knew it probably wasn't a great idea and was unsettled by the idea of doing it alone. I looked online and some said they had had awesome trips under those circumstances, so I tried to relax and ready myself to enjoy it.

I grabbed my laptop and cell phone, went to my room, turned on a red lantern and turned the other lights off. I put on "Clocks" by Coldplay (my favorite) to try to relax and feel comfortable (I'm pretty sure a part of me was not all into it and that most likely had an effect on my experience).

I set my phone to record audio and took a hit. I put the bong away and lay in my bed, holding the smoke in.

I exhaled and immediately started to go.

I'm going to try to explain this as best as I can:

Physically I began to feel as if I was everything. It's like, I was detached from my body and even if I could move it, I was not just my body, my arms, my legs, I was everything in the room. I think it might have felt like when you're swimming in water and, in a way, you're part of what's in the water.

After hearing some of the recording, I apparently was saying "I get it. Thank you, God. Thank you, Jesus. I get it."

Which quickly turned into..."I get it...but I don't want to get it. No, no, no, no."

The physical effect of it became a conscious awareness very quickly and HUGELY OVERWHELMING. I began to relate what was happening to me with the theory of only "you" existing and everything else was a product of your consciousness. This was terrifying because I felt so alone.

I was petrified that I would never come out of this form of thinking...that this would be my existence henceforth.

I'm not entirely sure how long the actual "trip" itself lasted, but my thoughts about existence and the possibility of me not existing were terrifying and lasted a long time. I smoked around 10pm and I was unable to fall asleep until around 1:30AM (3 and a half hours later).

I remember going on my computer to try to make sure it was recording in case my phone stopped and all of a sudden I was my computer. My existence was limited to moving programs and opening Quicktime player and quitting and such. This was extremely scary so I decided to rip myself away from the computer repeating "I can do other things" and just going around touching other objects (if I remember correctly).

At one point, I was so panicked from the salvia (but starting to become more aware of my environment) that I grabbed the remaining salvia and threw it out, then I grabbed the slider from my bong and tossed it in the sink (it broke and I didn't feel bad). I remember thinking that I would NEVER do anything that would alter my mind again because it was too overwhelming to contemplate the possibility of another reality (at least at this level of consciousness).

I am normally all for metaphysics and discussing other possibilities and life after death and all that stuff, but the experience made me feel as though I was actually "enlightened" or able to "understand" through experience what the other realities were and the problem...the true source of the fear was thinking it could not be undone...that I would never be the same again (obviously, for the worst).

I remember thinking that I was going to become permanently schizophrenic or something like that. I thought of my family and of how that would be tragic for them and I was so regretting smoking it, that it was not worth it.

I called my friend because I needed to know someone else was there (even though, technically, I guess I could have easily been imagining them...which is probably why I wanted everything recorded...so I had proof).

I kept thinking that I was going to wake up the next day and feel like a complete idiot...and that's what I was praying for, but there was a part of me that looked at the clock and noticed it was like two hours later and still unsure of reality.

My friend reminded me that she had experience an awful trip on salvia that had lasted a long time (this was about thirty minutes to an hour into my trip) and that I should just relax, breathe, and maybe watch some tv...try to do something normal.

I really wanted her to come over to have another physical being there with me, but she couldn't. So I just breathed and turned on the tv. I kept turning on lights to be able to see everything in my room.

I tried to do "normal" things like drink water, watch tv, brush my teeth, even pee to remind myself that I was human and everything was fine but a part of me was analyzing everything from "the other side" and seeing the mundanity of existence and lack of purpose...in a way.

I opened up my window to let cold air in and also put a fan next to my bed (not because I was hot, but because I needed to feel physical stimulus on myself to remind myself, again, that I could feel because I was in a human body).

I eventually decided to take a shower.

All I wanted was to go to sleep but I was scared of sleeping because I didn't know what would happen to my mind and how I would wake up.

I was just praying to God that it would end and that nothing permanent would happen with my mind (I have an aunt who experimented with some drug I'm not sure of only once and has been taking medication ever since).

I spoke with another friend on the phone and I'm pretty sure the trip was coming to an end and I could physically feel better, more connected with reality, coming back, but there was still the lingering feeling of what I had experienced.

I watched some adult swim and played music but everything seemed to apply to what was happening to me and I was reading into it a lot, so I ended up switching the movie off and tuning onto Law & Order (which isn't, obviously, the most pleasant show to watch, but I love it and it was something normal for me) and eventually drifted off to sleep.

Before falling asleep, I closed my window and removed the fan from the side of my bed because I was aware I had just taken a shower and my hair was wet and I would probably get sick.

This gave me a feeling of being normal and back in touch with my existence as a human and my physical body.

I woke up today feeling better. Still jarred and I had that shadow of last night's experience somewhere in my mind. Obviously, I am still thinking about it since I'm writing about it.

It has helped to see some friends, but on the drive there, I felt as though, in a way, I was driving for the first time.

I was really scared that I wouldn't be able to function normally after last night but so far it's going well.

My friend tells me it's going to take a few days before it goes "away" although I'll most likely never forget what happened.

All I want is for it to pretty much disappear. I was petrified and thought I had achieved, in some sense, "enlightenment" or felt what it was like to be just consciousness, but it was REALLY uncomfortable and overwhelming for the mind.

It's like I had been in the matrix, taken the blue pill and been shown something...my response to that being, "I want to throw up this blue pill and take the red one. I want to go back."

Even today the thought occurred to me that maybe I died last night and I am just unaware of it and just pretending to go about reality.

I know that sounds ridiculous, but it's just weird getting back to normal after that very scary experience.

I do NOT recommend doing it...and if you do, do it with a sitter FOR SURE and be comfortable and relaxed and all that. Seriously, tread with caution.

The simplicity of human life seemed FAR MORE BEAUTIFUL than what I experienced.

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Posted by GreenDragon333 on 02/24/2010
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Thanks for a nice recalling of your "horror" story.

It has occurred to me after reading carefully over and over that you and your fears and resistance were the cause of the majority of your not so good experience.

I agree with many posts that a good respect for any form of use of Salvia Divinorum is essential. I don't always agree that a sitter need be present.

I only say this because a "concious" and "subconcience" mind out of control and being directed by "FEAR" are the cause of so many horror reports. (Spoken from a long prolonged deliberate exposure to Sally D in many different methods of use)

Sally D is not the problem. People and their polluted "dogmatic" and polluted minds are at fault.

You put "CRAP" in and you get "CRAP" out. Invasive violence in the real world and current digital games content and movies and etc etc etc just contribute to the increasing amount of reports that send the general uneducated public into a prohibitory frenzy.

I have personally died and come back from the dead during several "trips" and it only confirms the "simplicity of human life that seemed FAR MORE BEAUTIFUL than what youI experienced".

However, we all get to choose the way we perceive. Thank you Jesus.

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Posted by BLaZeDRas on 11/10/2010
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very interesting. I had a similar experience but from a bag of weed (though I had been experimenting with salvia for the last year or so very rarely).

My friend also experienced the same panic attack effect from the same bag of weed so I put it down to the weed being dodgy... neither of us had experienced anything like it with many years of cannabis use before.

But yes, it is very easy to see why a panic attack could arise from doing salvia. My panic attack lasted 3hours, and the "out of body" feeling lasted a few days after that, with anxiety problems for the next few months.

What helped me when it happened (havent had a panic attack since and the anxiety bouts stopped a few months after) to realize that it was a panic attack. I had read a lot about them before and this may have been a triggering agent... if you know the symptoms of the panic attack and can realize that it is one of them you handle it a lot better probably.

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Posted by valkyrie on 01/05/2011
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I don't think your fear was a bad thing. Fear is part of being human, you know? I've been overwhelmed by fear during a trip as well and each time it has actually made me appreciate the life that I have right now (because I'm prone to wishing that I lived in dreams).

I was afraid that I would be trapped in my infinite everything/nothingness and never return. Afterwards, I was afraid that death would be like that. But we'll never really know.

Now, I see that even if you have a bad trip (which I kind of think I've only had bad trips so far because I resist instead of going with the flow), there is something to be learned if you try to look at things in a positive way.

A paradox. Salvia can make me feel the deepest depths of sorrow and despair - but once you hit the bottom there's nowhere to go but up. And so, I feel disgusting and then elated. It's the elated part that sticks with me throughout the days to follow.

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Posted by Mrcoleman1993 on 05/20/2016
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Ok so this morning i received my salvia in the mail, so excited to try i light incense get established in my bed, little light and calming music and a prayer asking to reviel some life question. Looking back on the exsperiance now i can grasp what happend but lets me start from my exsperiance.

It was literally the most horrifying experience of my life. The reason i am posting this trip report here is because of the similarities with your trip. As i inhaled my bong hit and lay down with eyes closed i have no idea the trip that lay before me. Exspecting some sort of spiritual exsperiance ,mabey a glimps at another reality i go forward excited. I do not know how long it took me to start tripping but i rememer feeling/seeing a emense aray of colors, liken to a kaleidoscope but like i was slideing between worlds, possibly dieing and this was me exsperianceing my consciousness pushing through this reality to the other side. The dilibrium of the drug makeing me not think straight or mabey just the sheere fact that mind was trying to make sense of what i was feeling / exsperianceing had me in terror thinking i was literalty going to the other side loseing all in this plane of existance. I in a panic start trying to move my hands frantacly or atleast trying to because i cant see nore feel my body at this point, trying to escape this fate of death i than somehow get to my feet and start running around my house, visuals spiraling , than i stop because i start hearing a voice saying it ok calm down, not knowing where this voce came from i stop, i then see a distorted figure to match the voice to, i began to think this is God/ a creature welcomeing me to the other side telling me to calm down becausr there is no point in running and screaming ( because you know that totally helps when your dead and dying lol) but at this point i begin to come out of the trip but insead of comeing out of the trip nicely it feels as if i am literatly turning inside out my consciousness being ripped back as if i was just shown the other side but not into the same world but one slightly different, the air feeling different on my skin, ( the only way i can describe it) me being the only one who knows , like being shown a secret. But as my sight normalized this distorted figure distorts forther morphing into my grandmother, my surrounding morphing into my house surrounding me, i am in a state of pannic, sweating , breathing heavily, i thought for a moment this was a fake reality. As i began to grasp the situation i begin to calm down, talking to my mother, grandmother, and brother trying to exsplain to them why i was running around screaming like i have never in my before screamed. I thusly threw away my salvia away even my bong, this was my first true psychedelic exsperiance, it horrified me it horrified my family, i will never use salvia again and i am afraid to try any psychedelics again. But like i said at the begening of this report after looking back at the exsperiance its not as scary and i know it was just a bad trip, but it was so real, makeing me think what if it was. As for anyone thinking of useing this drug its up to you. Exsperiance at you own risk. I will say i exsperianced something horrifying and reflecting upon it now slighty amazing. But as for me im going to stick with my bud.

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Posted by 4real2 on 04/20/2017
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Similar experience here- I had jack ass friends that didnt tell me what it was, thought it was weed, and I hardly smoke. Anyway it was diablo- pure silvia stuff. So I take a drag hold it in as long as I can, and immediately enter purgatory where time has ceased and no longer is linear. The now felt like forever trapped in a thought- I remembered nothing of my previous life but knew there had to be a way out! Even though in real time only minutes had passed but to me it felt as though life times. Just super scary so that was stage one, My friends then somehow managed to get me to take another hit. Which I didnt think I could move I was completely paralyzed so I thought. So after taking another hit Ive escaped purgatory and am now outside of my body looking down on my friends that I vaguely remebered and was laying down. later they explained they had tried to move me in which time I began to seizure a bit. I just remeber thinking at this time my body was an avatar and I had never had true sight until now- I no longer knew anything but I was part of the knowledge flow. Pretty cool if that was it but then all of a sudden I felt a strong presence a mass beyond any power I have ever known chaos total destruction ruin. A black hole that not even thought could escape information was random and was being destroyed as everything was being squeezed back to a singularity, It was pure anguish forever. All this time as my friends observed I was just screaming noooo! at the top of my lungs! Anyway diablo did its job I seen purgatory then was shown the depths of hell. Lol not fun but was so glad to be back! The vision of this place was so extreme it is not somewhere I want to go to again!It took weeks to shake myself from this and I will never forget it. As a Christian myself I realized how stupid a decision I had made, but it reminded me of how much hope I have in this life and my soul in the afterlife with Jesus! Funny enough Jesus describes hell as outer darkness: where there is weeping and gnashing of teeth. Matt 22:13 Id say that describes what I seen pretty well.
Draw your own conclusions, But I suggest forgoing this drug.
P.S> If you think this life is hopeless trip on salvia. When I was in the purgatory stage I experienced what could only be described as pure hopelessness never changing dread. Id almost say this would pull anyone from the ledge. Out of the frying pan into the fire analogy comes to mind.

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Posted by varun on 04/27/2017
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salvia is the wierdest drug i have ever tripped on out of body shit....that feeling of being ethiric in nature its not auctually happening thats how u picture yourself in your head u dont auctually get out....its the only drug which is availalable and legal but its such a bad scary ugly trip ill take acid over it anyday


ill send u a link

https://goahippytrail.wordpress.com/2012/06/13/salvia-divinorum-astral-projection-and-out-of-body-experiance/

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Posted by varun on 04/27/2017
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all drugs do is open u up to ur own mind
whatever junk is inside it fears,mental blocks etc come up in our so called bad trips


there was a time i could say i could trip on 8 blots of A and still ride my scooty back to my room in goa and this has happened of cource

not anymore.....
just got too old ....and more than that....mind got polluted...thats why on any drug which is mind altering u should do it to lose your mind completely even for a second if u come back to reality ur trip is fucked like i am tripping on acid i a club suddenly i remember shit i left my weed on my desk on my pc and my parents are gonna find out....its over trip fucked....u could never reach the real esctacy of mind altering drugs without working on ur mind :)

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