Salvia Trip

This Moment Always Happens...Forever

Posted by Dreamer on 24/01/2012
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I smoked Salvia last night and I'm still in amazement (and terror) over what happened. First I'll give some pre-Salvia facts: My friend M brought over a new Rick Ross mixtape a couple of nights ago. One song has this hauntingly ridiculous keyboard melody. As soon as I heard it, I could have sworn I remembered it even though I had never heard it.

Ok...fast forward three days and I'm hanging out with M and his friend D (whom I've never met). Something seemed very familiar about D but I could place my finger on it. We all went out to eat together and once we were back in the car (sitting in the parking lot) I brought out my little baggie of Salvia 10x. I laughingly told D he should try it, but he'd never heard of it and wanted me to smoke it first so he could see the effects. No problem, it's been a couple of months since my last salvia trip and it's been on my mind to "go back in". I loaded a little metal cigarette shaped one-hitter and sparked it up. I only took one puff which I held for approx. 30 seconds. I exhaled and could feel it coming on. I said "It's about to happen, "it's about to happen" and then it happed. Once again, as usual, I start laughing maniacally! My arms are flailing around and the world looks the same but "different". It's almost like I could see time passing... seeing each individual moment dissolving into wherever moments go when they are finished. That Rick Ross song from the mixtape started playing and I heard that haunting melody and thought "Oh, shit...that's why I remembered that song, it ALWAYS plays right now when I take THIS salvia trip. I look at my friend M and tell him I need him to turn that music off. He says while laughing "Why do you want me to turn the music off?" I'm thinking "HOLY CRAP - HE ALWAYS SAYS THAT RIGHT NOW". This is how it always happens. I realized that I had been in this exact situation before (probably countless times) but somehow my ego blocks it out...because it's so horrifying to realize I'm in some kind of time loop. I never look at D at all during the trip because I realize that he's always in the car with us. That's why he seemed so familiar when I met him. I tell M that I want to get out of the car and he asks me why I want to get out of the car. Again, HE ALWAYS ASKS ME THAT EVERY TIME THIS HAPPENS". As I'm looking at him and hearing his voice I have an acute awareness that no matter what decisions I choose, it's what always happens. I didn't get out of the car because I knew what was going to happen. M was going to say "Why are you running, what are you trying to get away from". I knew it because a different version of this event had happened "before". So this time I stayed in the car and just sat still. I knew (or rather hoped) that if I waited I'd be back to reality soon. For a brief moment I even thought I had died and this was some kind of punishment. Even as I was sitting still in the car, I was aware that I always almost get out of the car...but I never do. This whole affair has been scripted by Higher Power(s) or Intelligence(s) and we people are just acting out the roles.

Even during the drive home while M was doing stupid stuff in the car...turning the head lights off (at night), swerving the vehicle on purpose and asking me stupid questions I had full awareness that these events (or a slightly different version of them) had happened "before". I actually thought that we might get into an accident and die...because it happened "before". I was so glad when I made it home...ALIVE!

I'm starting to think that maybe Salvia shows us the truest reality...that every possible moment exists RIGHT NOW. Think of time as individual moments or like the still frames of a motion picture. What if everything that can possibly happen exists on those still frames? Maybe our consciousness flys through these frames so fast that it appears to be real to the consciousness. Every decision made will take that consciousness on a different path through the still frames...but the moment still exists in the true reality even if the consciousness didn't take that particular route. I guess I'm talking about true reality being "infinite possibilities". I still don't don't why everytime I smoke Salvia I remember being in that situation. It's Deja Vu in the truest, rawest form.

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Posted by jessicajoy on 02/02/2012
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I relate to the music thing...it just happened to me a few days ago. I started screaming for my friend to turn the music off. Everything does repeat that is the only explanation for the experiences Ive had as well. Maybe we get stuck in time loops we mentally block out until we get it right? Like a game you can't move on to the next level until you beat the one your on.

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